Lord I Need You...We Need You...Now

It's been a rough day :( My Nina (My aunt & godmother) is in the hospital dying. She's fighting so hard to stay...but things aren't looking good for her. I'm seriously struggling to keep it all together. There's so much I feel like saying, crying, screaming...but with all the emotion building this song says it all. It says everything my soul is emitting. Lord, my family & I...we need you now.

I Need You Now
~ Smokey Norful

Not a second
Or another minute
Not an hour
Or another day

But at this moment with my arms outstretched
I need you to make a way
As you've done so many times before
Through a window or an open door

I stretch my hands to you
Come rescue me
I need you
Right away

I need you now
I need you now
I need you now
I need you now

Not another second
Or another minute
Not another hour of another day
But Lord I need you right away

If I never needed you before
To show up and restore
All of the faith that I let slip
While I was yet searching the world for more

The true best friend I have indeed
You're my best friend I know indeed
I stretch my hands to thee
Come rescue me
I need you right away

The agony of being alone
The fear of doing things on my own
The test and trials that come to make me strong
The feelings of guilt, hurt, shame, and defeat
The way the trials that beat upon me
But to know Lord that in you I've got victory

I need you now, Lord, I need you now
I need you right now, right now, right now
I need you now

Oh not another second
Not another minute, Lord
Can't wait another day
Oh Lord, please make a way
Oh Lord, Oh Lord, Mmmmm, Yeah

I hope that you had a blessed and wonderful day. It's important that we be thankful and happy for everyday that we spend above ground. You see...someone somewhere didn't get to see this day...and someone somewhere wont get to see tomorrow. Our days...no matter how hard or how incredible...are still gifts given to us by our wonderful and mighty GOD!! Embrace each day...Enjoy the things you have rather then dwell on the things you don't. Carpe Diem...Seize the Day!!!

Please, if you can, keep my aunt and my family in your prayers. We appreciate it so much. I love you lovies!! xoxo

INSOMNIA: Dreaming Wide Awake

Here I am again, in the same predicament I find myself in every day or night or is it day? lol....plagued by INSOMNIA! My laptop informs me that it is now 4am...it's 4am and the prospect of a good nights sleep has disappeared with the simple pm abbreviation from yesterdays time. Yet I find that in the absence of sleep, am capable of obtaining that which my mother wishes me every night...SWEET DREAMS. You see, I dream wide awake.

I have suffered (for lack of a better word) from insomnia for longer then I can recall. My days fade in to nights and fade back again in to days with all but 2 to 3 hours to easy the transition. But my experiences of dreaming are, to me, EXTRAORDINARY. Suffering from insomnia has aloud me the pleasure of dreaming dreams and watching those dreams come true all at the same time...with no or little sleep enforced "TO BE CONTINUED" clauses to separate my dreams from the eventual realization of those dreams. ((shrugs)) Dreaming wide awake is like watching a hit TV series without the ANNOYING, but sometime refreshing, CLIMACTIC intermission of each individual show. It is a most thrilling experiance and yet at the same time entirely exhausting....Most definitely a gift and a curse. Does that make sense? What are your thoughts? In retrospect, you may be wondering, "Meme, what was the point of sharing this random...slightly entertaining...tid-bit about your insomnatic experiences with dreaming?" & THAT'S A GREAT QUESTION with an equally GREAT ANSWER!! The answer is....I'M AN INSOMNIAC. There is no point, other then the fact that I am wide awake at what is now 4:15am with no one to talk to ((outside of twitter...where I am limited to 140 characters to express myself...which to me is pure tomfoolery...but that is another rant that I will save, for perhaps, another blog post)).

I wish I could end this blog post with a poetic, "I bid you farewell, sleep beckons me," but in reality I'm bidding you farewell because I'm thirsty and the iced tea, that I'm am so DESPERATELY CRAVING, is in the refrigerator down stairs. ha ha. So goodnight/good morning to you, lovies. Be Blessed